Wednesday, December 25, 2013

In A Moment of Christmas Grief

Christmas day. A day of joy. A day of excitement. A day of wonderment. For us, today, it's a day of sadness.

Our family pet, Cisco unexpectedly passed away early this morning. And I've cried...a lot. You see, I never understood how someone could consider a pet an integral part of their family. Until Cisco entered our lives.

Cisco became a part of our clan three years ago. A co-worker raised him before then, and raised him well. Every time I visited her I'd remark how I wanted a dog just like Cisco. He was well-behaved, playful, and so full of love. My wish came true when she offered for us to take Cisco. He was the perfect dog for us. Everyone latched on immediately. I've never been much of a dog person and still didn't dote on Cisco as much as the kids did but I loved having him around. Even more, I loved how my kids loved him. He was their "brother", their "thunder buddy", their "best friend" and their "twin". That dog wanted for nothing and could do no wrong in the eyes of the kids.

And now, just like that, he's gone. I don't know why. He acted very lethargic all day Christmas Eve and could hardly walk. I was very worried but was very hopeful. I went to work and got the call just two hours in. Cisco waited for everyone at home to go to sleep, and passed away as soon as the lights went off.

It's never a good day or a good time for something like this. But really, on Christmas day?! And while I'm at work so I have to hear my children's heartbreaking sobs over the phone?! Tears, tears, and more tears. I want to scream. I want to punch a wall. I want to wish it away.

Cisco, give Jesus lots of doggie kisses for us as you celebrate Christmas with Him in heaven.
This picture was taken just two days ago of Adam laying on the floor and Cisco with his paw on Adam's head. The two were best buds. I'll never, ever again question someone's love for their pet and the grief when they lose one. The grief and pain is real. I should know, I'm feeling it right now.

4 comments:

Masshole Mommy said...

I am so sorry for your loss. What a sad thing to have happen on Christmas. <3

Trish V said...

Awwww so sorry! :(

Jackie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so sad when we lose a pet (I cried on and off for weeks), but can't even imagine what you must be feeling since it was on Christmas.

Jen at A Heart Full of Love said...

Losing a pet is always hard but I think it must be ten times worse when it happens at Christmas. I sam sorry for your loss.