Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Cancer's Trying To Beat Mom Down, But We Won't Let It Win

I have three words for cancer..."I hate you". I hate that you stole my step-father's life after he struggled with pancreatic cancer for two years. I hate how you stole my father's life three months after being diagnosed with lung cancer. I hate how you are now robbing my mother of her strength while she struggles with lung cancer.  It's not often I use the word hate but, believe me, I definitely  mean it. 

It's been a little over two months now since my mom's diagnosis.  There's good days, but they're few and far between.  She's on a daily radiation regimen and a once weekly chemo treatment.  The first two chemo treatments went all to hell and sent her to the hospital.  After a two week stint in the hospital, she's been living with me.   

The chemo meds have been changed up.  They don't cause mom to spend days on end in the hospital but there's no shortage of vomit.  A home health nurse and a physical therapist visit my home twice a week to check her vitals and help regain her strength.  Mom is losing weight at a rapid pace and the doctors keep warning her she's in a danger zone.  Her appetite is non-existent.  Just when I think my "old mom" is back and I see her smile or laugh, I'm robbed of it just a short time later.
Look Good/Feel Better makeup products
 
On a somewhat side note, my sister and I took mom to a Look Good/Feel Better event a couple weeks ago and it was a humbling experience.  There were eight other women there, all going through different stages and types of cancer.  Each lady was given a bag full of name-brand makeup to keep.  Although my mom hasn't lost all her hair yet and didn't need one, wigs were given out to the women who needed one.  I experienced a huge personality change in one woman when she walked out of the room with a nearly bald head and walked back in a short time later with a wig and hat.  You could see the definite positive change in her spirits.  It was contagious!  Huge accolades to the volunteers who put together Look Good/Feel Better events!
 
I'm worn down.  I'm exhausted.  I feel alone at times.  I feel like cancer has become a black plague that hangs over our house.  But I will continue to do everything in my power to help my mom during this struggle.  I have much faith and know that if He sees us to it, He'll see us through it. 
 
I have three more words for cancer.......We Will Win!

12 comments:

The Dose of Reality said...

I am so sorry to hear about your mom. I will be thinking of her and hoping that things get better. Hugs to you.-Ashley

Tara Overby said...

I am so sorry for what your mom, you and your family are all going through. Cancer is so awful and it is hard for everyone, not just the patient. Your mom looks so cute with her little stuffed Echo! I can't imagine how hard it is for you to see your mom suffer.

Aleksandra Nearing said...

I am sorry to hear about your mom! I am with you, cancer is one word that "hate" goes well with! I am glad to read you all are positive and will send you my prayers!

LesleyfromWI said...

I am so sorry that your mom and family has to go through this. I know firsthand how hard it is on everyone. Sending prayers your way!

katy said...

Your Mother and you are in my prayers.

Renee said...

Keep up that positive attitude :)
Maybe your mom could handle a liquid diet better than a normal one? (I have no medical experience at all, and little experience with cancer--I'm just throwing out a suggestion that you've probably already thought of.) Anyway, I hope she gets her appetite and strength back soon.

trishka said...

My Mom is dealing with chemo/radiation,too.But at least she is getting treatment,FINALLY.She diagnosed in early August and started her therapy this week.I AM ASHAMED of the state of health care in British Columbia,where we live.She has lost almost 40 pounds waiting to start her healing journey and had a feeding tube placed last month.

JoKnows said...

My best to you and your mom at this challenging time. You are a wonderful daughter.

mail4rosey said...

Of course you're going to win!! Big, heartfelt hugs to you, and a million good thoughts too.

Sue Hull said...

Terra,Im so sorry cancer has taken people you love. Ive alsi lost family members from cancer. I Hate Cancet r. Im a 2 1/2 yr old hodgkins lymphoma survivor. I know the pain ur feeling and it is frustrating to u and ur mom. My sister is a 10 yr survivor. Ive lost quite a few family and friends from cancer. Im going to keep u and ur mom in my prayers. If u ever want to talk, please feel free to pm me. God Bless :)

Maryann D. said...

I hate cancer too, it is so not fair. Wishing your mom a recovery and happiness and health in the New Year.
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Melissa Shirley said...

I am sorry to hear about you mom. I am glad she has you to help her and take care of her. My prayers are with you and your family.