Sunday, May 8, 2016

First Mother's Day Without My Mom

First of all, I want to say HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all the ladies out there.  Being a mother is one of the hardest, yet most rewarding, jobs in the world.

I've had a really hard time the last few days approaching up to this one.  To the point of panic attacks.  This is the first Mother's Day without my mom, and I'm not really okay with it.  I think about her every single day and the absolute reality still hasn't set in.  I've dealt with deaths before, but this one has shaken me to the core.

Being silly with my husband
December 2014

My mom wasn't perfect, but she was perfect for me.  She was my absolute best friend and confidante.  All kids, related or not, knew her as Grandma.  She had a silly side and loved to goof off.  My mom was a fighter and didn't let all her medical problems get her down.  We'd always ask for her recipes and would never get them.  Mostly because she just threw ingredients together until it tasted good.  She had a knack for making something out of nothing.  She was also quite crafty, making everything from suncatchers and wreaths to beaded jewelry and appliqued shirts.  Those mementos are now cherished treasures.

Although she drove me batty at times, I consider it an honor and a privilege that she was able to live with me the last two years of her life.  If it was up to me, I'd still have her here.  But it's not.  And now God's got my mother, my angel.
during one of her many hospital stays

7 comments:

MilitaryPugWife said...

Hope you're doing ok today. Hugs. Happy Mother's Day to you.

abedabun dawn said...

I know how you feel. Several years ago, my mom died the day before mothers day and was buried the day after. It is still hard to cope with.

Sue Hull said...

Happy Mother's Day Terra!
Im so sorry your having such a hard time and are hurting.My aunt & cousin used to spend Mother's Day with us. This yr was our first yr without her and there was that hole in all our hearts.We had a nice day but there was an emptiness.
I will always keep you in my prayers.

alissa apel said...

I bet this Mother's Day was hard! I love that she was perfect for you. I'm sad that she's not with you anymore. :(

Renee said...

I hope you made it through with more happy memories than hurt. Happy Belated Mother's Day.

Theresa Mahoney said...

I'm sure it's very difficult to celebrate the day, especially since her passing wasn't that long ago. I am sorry it was a sad day for you. Your mom seemed like a really special lady!

Tamra Phelps said...

I'm sorry to hear you lost your mom. I hope you found a way to get through Mothers Day without feeling overcome by the loss. A friend of mine says she tries to find something to do that would've brought some joy to her Mom. If you think that might help, give it a try on the next holiday.